Sometimes.. I think..
What if I died and Creden lived. He would’ve enjoyed this life better than I do. For sure, that would really make her mom happy. I mean if we could turn back the time, I wish I could trade places with the kiddo. Yeah sure, Vem would be sad when I’m dead but she’ll forget me soon enough. And at least, I won’t be able to disturb Jhed too.
I know I’m not a bad person but maybe somewhere along the way, I’m creating a rift, a disturbance. And all these hurt and pain, maybe I do deserve them.
No one would really look for me when I’m gone…
That kid though, he would’ve enjoyed this life better than I do.